fighting a war not my own?

These days, I do not feel myself. Many things are piling up, yet, I have to appear like I have everything in control.

I did not, and still do not like a life controlled, yet, my behaviour has to be determined by those of others and others are selfishly safeguarding they own interests.

I am having difficulty putting my thoughts in words, but just as well, I am not interested in telling anyone about it, because, chances are, well.. forget it..

I sit alone, at least for now.