I am not responsible for how you think

I am utterly upset with life again. I never wanted to feel sorry with myself, and I don't really feel sorry for others much. Martian struck again. Reason does not work on such a person - high (overly) self-esteem, egoistic, succumb to self-fulfilling prophecy, arrogant, stubborn-yet-low-IQ, lazy, name calling, high-and-mighty (when not worthy of), only likes to listen to nice things, cannot take criticism, impression manage. She asked me for help, I helped and added that she will need to pick up some pointers from my work (in that particular dealing) so that it will facilitate her future work. It was meant to be an encouragement to learn new things, but alas, it had to be taken to mean that I was scoffing at her low ability. To put things on record, if I meant to do what she perceived I was doing, it wouldhave been a hundred times more painful on the ear and the ego.

No means a sportsman

I am by no means a sportsman, nor do I have any talent for athletic stuff. However, recently, I do feel that I suffer some kind of syndromes when I absent myself from some kind of exercise. Be it the evening jog, or the afternoon swim. For the past 3 days, I am devoid of physical training (either by weather, work or timing), and I find my mood kind of dull, I feel wasted, or rather I hope to waste some energy somehow. Today evening, the weather is great and I went for my farm mart route. Not a long trip, but a satisfying one nonetheless. I feel my endorphin waking up and I actually feel livelier, and i began to think of what I would like to do tomorrow.

林志炫 - 没离开过

君子之交淡如水

The romantic notion of friendship is no longer as valid. Perhaps it was never valid. Friends used to be or in my opinion should be frank and considerate towards each other's predicament and situation. If one knows his action (or inaction) will bear certain effects on his friend, he would have spent a slight effort to initiate an action, or not do something that might have ill-effects on his 'friend'. However, nowadays, I find myself constantly making myself available to friends who do not even bother to drop you a text message to say he is unable to turn up for something. In another words, he rather put you 'on hold' and perhaps 'available' to give himself a backup plan in case you are needed. Friends would not have treated you like a fool or take you for granted. Look you up when they need you, for play, for help, for whatever? I was recently treated like a prostitute on a hold list. A 'friend' asked to make plans for a trip, and and at the same time complained about another 'friend' who kept pestering him to go on another trip which 'he does not want to commit at that point in time'. Alas, when I contacted him to ask on the intended plans, I was shocked and bewildered when he said he will be going on that other trip he was not interested then. I felt like I was on the receiving end of some Weeting nonsense. I am disenchanted indeed.

Everything In The World

One night ago, I was at Qu Wanting concert. I expected no fanciful set up and spectacular dress and I was right. But because of the simple set up - of a few guitars, a white piano, a drum kit and a keyboard - I was able to enjoy her singing and feel her feelings at the purest possible.

That night, the song that touched me most was "Shell". Perhaps because of a similar experience.

I have nothing much to review about the concert because the entire show was about feeling the music, feeling the connection and being drenched in them.

My whole year wait has come to a nothing.

I am probably cancelling the trip next month. My whole year wait has come to a nothing. I feel extremely disappointed and upset, but who cares.

Everybody has their own agenda. This guy wants to show that he does not need that old hag; that old hag want to prove that she is no pullover.

Yes, all of you are almighty. You all have proven your point. But in the end, I will be the one will be condemned to the damned desk, listening to the damned phone, settling sh!t.

The failed school

The very first element of this school says "Integrity". I do not see a high level demonstrated.

In a nutshell. They asked us to pay a visit to their school, and in our face, tell us that because of their poor sales of tickets, they will have to cut a substantial job from our contract. A CONTRACT, mind you! Dear Madam Vice Principal, do you know what you are doing? This is known as a breach of contractual terms, and an big chunk, if you will.

A person/institution with INTEGRITY will visit the injured party to apologise and ask for forgiveness and understanding. An unruly gangster will demand the injured party to go to their place and tell them their service is no longer needed.

Which one are you, you judge for yourself.